The more I try the more I fail,
Day in and out,
Sweating and pulling every plug needed to succeed,
Still, I fail.
Perhaps I sinned?
Could my sins be worse than other people's?

Cracking mind from endless questions,
Painful eyes from crying,
Sore heart from everyday heart breaks,
Tired soul and mind from trying with no success,
Life giving me turns of bad luck any chance it gets.

Is it gonna get better?
Maybe,
Perhaps worse.
Emotionally I stand no ground for surviving any hit again,
Physically, I feel tired.

What do I do?
That I haven't tried before?
Nothing, right?
Wait?
Till when?

My heart full of unspoken feelings,
Heart booming with pain,
With everything,
I no more have the energy to fight again.
The hope is all lost.
Can't blame me.
© Thato Mangwegape