depression filled my heart
regret I always had
anguish I always felt
pains always lingered

it's okay I can handle I thought
living with pain yet unheard
echos of pain inside
yet silent in outer

she is strong they say
yes I am but I'm not
I dance to their tune
though the beat hurts me

the songs of sadness they play
yet happiness I displayed
it's gonna be okay I said
just live as your role

maturity I guess
or is it time?
But all I realized now is
it's okay to not be okay