as the leaves fall down and the snow comes around, I find myself declining, my stability lost and I'm stuck in the void of not being able to handle my emotions.

I find the holidays to be painful, as the cold breeze freezes my everlasting tears.

I find it hard to eat during those months, sometimes going days without eating much

but as the snow melts and the flowers bloom I start to feel okay again, I feel my life getting easier and more under control, enjoying the warm breeze in my hair, a happiness I haven't felt in months

and as the flowers bloom in their peek and the days become longer and longer I feel at my best, the beaches calm my soul, I finally feel hungry when I should be, I feel stable, at peace.

but as it cools down again I feel the pit in my stomach again,

the endless cycle.

© Alexwormald