I used to be the one
getting despised
used to being ignored
and twice a year being the center of attention

I used to hate myself
think other people are basically perfect in every way
either complete or perfect compared to me

I used to stare at other people
wonder what they were thinking about
did they feel things as little or as much as I did?
Did they fear taking chances as much as I did?
Did they notice and fear and wonder what other people thought of them as much as I did?
Did they hate struggles as much as I did?
Did they hate getting ignored as much as I did?
Did they admire their own looks as much as I did?

Did they love being alone...