Always trying but I fail!
In my coffin another nail!
No matter what can’t prevail!

I breathe in and exhale!
My mind becoming more frail!
I’m lost in the darkest veil!

Trying to escape but to no avail!
Have I wondered down the forbidden trail?
My brain locked inside my own mental jail!

No escaping my own personal hell!
That jail now a prison cell!
I am nothing but an empty shell!

Am I cursed under a witch’s spell?
Will I ever once again become well?
Maybe time I bid farewell!

There goes the ringing of my final bell!
Becoming whole again who can tell!
Being in that darkness of that I excel!

Trying hard to not let the demons win!
Hard to keep them away slowly in my mind they’re digging in!
Taking my mind for a spin!

Hating myself from deep within!
My armor wearing thin!
How long I’ve felt like this I don’t know where to begin!

In my mind the darkest and most heartbreaking places I’ve been!
I’ve got the proverbial grenade ready to pull the pin!
This hatred for myself has it always been deep buried under my skin?
© BDawg90