I was marked so hard.
I cannot. I just cannot.
Stop Dwelling.
When you have issues others, don't understand.
They respond, leave it in the past.
I promised, I would.
But it is still there.
This type of pain is not rare.
How can I stop?
When actions and emotions, I dealt with.
Just will not stay in the past.
Its a mind thing they say.
Yes, that is true.
Embedded in me, by the meanest people I knew.
How can you resolve those issues?
When others think you have none.
Holding on to that angry past.
How can they say, yes you can.
And they really don't know.
Still hearing the screaming and yelling. For things I did not do.
Having knives and guns pulled out on you.
Outside trying to get in.
They do not have the pain or scars.
Not letting me go through my frustration my way.
Makes it hard to connect on that one way.
Writing down my feelings.
Trying to get them out.
I have to do this my way.
Or it will not get done.
I will start over and learn to be me.
I can, I know I can.
Stop Dwelling.

© Brigett Hartley
@BreHa2874