I blew it. I blew my chance to inspire to the world. It would have been better if I had been a fraud. I've disappointed and brought down the hopes of people who were willing to support me. All this was the cause of fear that buzzed within me like a bee. If I can't fight fear when I face the crowd how I'm I going to inspire to the world.

Well I just got bored with the world. I wish I was living alone peacefully without being hurled. But sometimes I just feel I need someone who would hug me and tell me to take heart. Yet my nature and inabilities would not permit me to have someone who would love and give me her heart.

It looks like I'm a burden to those around me. I can't fight my problems like Bruce Lee. Yes, it's true I suck, I should have been a plantain sucker rather than a human. I always ask myself each and everyday if I was truly born out of a woman. Who I'm I? Someone should tell me why I'm on earth. I guess maybe my characteristics as a normal human got mutated from birth.

At this point I can't find the definition of my life itself. Well, I guess the earth has cursed me herself. She favours my opponents like Anthony Taylor and the devil backs her up like Mike Dean. This is so complicated like an alkene. I don't know why when I begin to converse with my colleagues my nervous system gets aggravated. I shiver over little things I'm not supposed to, well maybe I'm automated.

The words of encouragement from people are all lies. Shakespeare quoted,"Hurt me with the truth but don't comfort me with a lie." Maybe they're afraid out of the truth I might die. It would be better for me to die by knowing the truth rather than living by a lie.

No one should call me Inspiration Speakz but rather Inspiration Fears. That is why I'm antisocial and I don't walk in pairs. I now belong to a personal secret society. This would help eradicate burden on my parents and bring their fidelity. I've now realised no one can help me with the issues I'm facing. Let these problems eat me on the inside since their teeth are larger than carnivores, isn't that amazing?

Let the whole world mock, laugh and throw stuffs at me because that is how my life has become. Being part of a personal secret society is great since I'm a burden to people, my family and the one I truly love. Thus, I was born not to deserve love.


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