some times she felt really heavy
not physically obesed but emotionally
her heart bleeding and aching
longing to be relieved
off the burdens it bears.

she keeps a lot to herself
simply because,
it's difficult to find those who understands.
she felt and feels it's safer in there
safer in her roomy heart.

then her heart became turgid
having been filled to the extreme...
it started bleeding and bleeding
but she kept on patching and patching
cementing the holes in her heart.

then the day came,
when her patching could not cover up the bleeding,
when her cementing could not cement the holes anymore,
when her heart bled all through the day,
when she found it hard to breathe at night...

she needed to pour out everything,
she needed to talk to someone,
she needed to express herself,
she needed to lift the burden off
Her heart and mind,

she needed someone to hold her
and tell her she isn't okay
when she says, she was.
but no one came
and she kept on bleeding and bleeding.
until the day she GAVE UP
and she died...


"perhaps she had to distance herself to save herself..."