After so many days we've drifted apart
I admit, it was not the easiest thing for my heart
To let go of something i wanted so strongly
Even though we would treat each other so wrongly

At first it was hard to talk to you sober
that cold distant voice making it all seem so over
But then in the night after a few shots of whiskey
You call, wake me up, and say how much you missed me

It was hard to decipher which one i believe
Though the late night drunk calls gave my heart a reprieve
It was all hard to handle i was making myself crazy
Anxiety kept all my realities hazy

Now it's all different, you seem all but gone
Part of me wonders, if we had of gone on
Would it all just end toxic could we actually make it
Or would i have been fooled by each smile as we fake it

Sometimes i just dwell and remember your laugh
And all of the things that you did on my behalf
And see parts of us that could have been amazing
And it all sinks in deep while the pain is still fading

I know that i love you and i know i always will
Even though im moving forward you have a hold on me still
It brings a tear to my eyes and i know it sounds sappy
But all i ever wanted was for you to be happy

So the phone has stopped ringing in the early hours of morning
The calls that use to come in without any warning
I think that i might one day miss those calls to
I wish it was easy to stop loving you....

© The Moonlight Bard