I sealed myself in spells of addiction,
Lost in the depths of my own affliction.
Inflictions dance upon my scars,
Leaving behind invisible bars.

Bound by curses, entrapped by chain,
In this cycle, I feel nothing but pain.
I buried my soul for your name,
But now I realize it was all in vain.

With each hit, I sink deeper,
Losing myself, becoming a distant sleeper.
Numbness clouding my once clear brain,
As I try to drown out the constant strain.

Arousal subdued, intentions scorned,
In this darkness, I feel torn.
I long to break free from this hold,
To find myself, to be so bold.

But the grip of addiction tightens its hold,
Leaving me stranded, feeling cold.
I crave the rush, the temporary escape,
But in the end, it's just another scrape

My relationships suffer, my friendships strain,
As I isolate myself in this self-made pain.
I push away those who care for me,
Lost in the illusion of false...