I've become so different from who I was only a short time ago. My very best guess would be the say that the all the pain I've endured and then held inside his changed me for the worst. I'm sadly becoming cold where I was once very warm, trusting and loving. Now I questioned every single move made by anyone who even gets remotely close to me. When it first began to happen I just thought those around me were exaggerating or just being critical. But lately is becoming painfully clear for me that they were right and not only do I not like it at all,
.love. Real love not lollipop the twists and turns along the way have damaged. They resulted in my becoming a lost soul, a fool who no longer has a sense of direction. It's as if I'm trapped inside an impossible maze.
          And it seems that the longer I'm inside that maze and the harder that I search for the exit the more I seem to hit dead ends. And, with each and every dead end that I hit, I find myself facing more heartache or pain. Which in turn just breaks me down more and more. However, it's not surprising because I've grown used to it after all of these years.
          Then, it happens one day, that I catch a glimpse of the exit. I feel a sense of relief thinking of the end of maze and the chance to maybe not worry so much about my destiny. All which I'm hoping is finally going to ease up a little bit and possibly let me find a little peace. Finally, that silver lining that i'd been praying for was within my sight. However, much to my dismay, it seems all i found was that it was nothing more than a Mirage. I was careful, and followed the path I was shown in my vision, but low and behold still no exit. All I did find truly was just another dead end. Hitting this dead end resulted in an impossible to prevent meltdown for me.
Now, I'm sure if anyone had been watching me up until this point, they would have surely thought that I was quite a pitiful sight to see and more than likely, they would have also considered me to be a childish fool. I only say that because I could almost be positive that the route...