My first real and true love
The Man whose love I treasure
This time apart hasnt been easy
But I swear I love you beyond all measure.
You're still my first thought each morning
My last thought as I drift off to sleep
As long as there remains breath in me
My heart and soul are yours to keep.
Things were so perfect once upon a time
Then it all seemed to fall quickly apart
I wish we could go back and begin again
But I don't know where to even start.
Things feel so much different now
Though my love still burns just as strong
I'd give anything to look in your eyes
To feel as if nothing could ever go wrong.
My first full taste of unconditional love
The Man I wished for upon the night stars
Now we must know, we are both to blame
We wasted a blessing that was solely ours.
We started out with a love just so perfect
But all we've been through since is a shame
Didn't know we'd wind up alone not together
In my dreams I often scream your name.
Its so sad that we have to be so far apart
But in my heart, you're forever by my side
My soul will never love another I swear
You're the one i wanted for all my life.
I don't know how to ease the pain caused
We are both damaged in need of repair
After giving so much of who we really are
Life with any other just wouldn't be truly fair.
Acting as if we are okay even if we aren't
Hiding emotions, smiling through the hurt
Acting fine as we try to find a way to heal
Never letting go until we are buried in dirt.
We need to fix what has been broken
For the memories will haunt us, never gone
We can't give ourselves fully to another
Missing each other from dusk till dawn.
The daylight will not be kind to our hearts
The dark brings tears to our wounded souls
The taste of heaven and hell mixed is bitter
When you have a winning hand, never fold.
So I can't let you or I walk away from love
When truly, you are all my heart desires
I want the both of us to be happy together
Just for you, my soul has an eternal fire.
I love you sweetheart more than anything
Noone's ever touched me the way you have
And I know that life without you isn't right
Because all i do is worry and remain sad.
So lets figure out how to get things back
Let's bring back the people we were before
So life is happy and happiness never fades
So we never face love walking out the door.

                  Nikki Battles
           JANUARY 28, 2020

© Hailey Raine