The emptiness inside me that contains my soul,

It leaves a burden that can't be fixed,

the teardrops run down my face,

a sad,depressed,and lonely girl.

I've never felt this much pain before,

I wish I could just break you for breaking me,

now I'm sitting in the corner of a room,

nobody has ever hurt me like you did,

and now all I wanna do is watch you suffer.

I deserved better but you ruined everything,

you ruined me,

I wanna be in a life that I belong in,ever time you hurt me the more I cry,

I know you feel that I'm not good enough,

you don't have to say it I know I'm not pretty and I'm sorry that I can't give you what you want.

Every time that you said you loved me it was all just pretend,

you made me feel special but then you took it all away,

you don't stand a chance anymore,

you acted like a little bitch,

I watched you lie to my face everyday of your miserable life.

All the emotional beatings I took from you,

I was never able to escape,

you made me feel useless and like a piece of trash,

I'm tired of this life I just wanna end it but I can't because I know that I would have to pay.

I am breaking down,

there's to much to take in,

my heart's hanging in the air,

while my brain is tearing me apart,

I feel like I've lost my head completely,

there's nothing much more I can do.

holding on is harder than it seems,

the misery that crosses me everyday,

It makes me fall to my knees and I can't get back up,

My life is pointless,

there's no hope for me,

I mind as well just end it but I can't.

I'm scared of all these voices in my head,

I'm so tired of fighting,

I just want to let go,

and sink to the point where I'm no longer conscious,

After all, I believe I was born to die.

The pain slithers in my soul,

I get this queasy feeling where I have to barf all day,

I know I'm pathetic,

so if one day you wake up and I'm gone don't cry or grieve because I know I don't mean anything to you and that I never did,

I get it I'm useless and I'm stupid,

there's no need to waste your breath because I already know.

This is fucking bullshit where's my happy ending,

oh wait I don't get one because I'm a loser,

I waste everyone's time,

I feel so alone,

When I tell you I'm fine really I'm not,

sometimes I get so sad that its hard to breath but what am I to do.

You throw me out of ur world,

make me feel like I'm not good enough,

Make me feel useless and misunderstood,

I try so hard everyday to get the best from u,

But u never accept me for who I am,

Why did u have to ruin my life and make me feel useless,

I was nothing but charity to u,

Why did u have to do me like that.

I feel like I've made a huge mistake of reaching out to u,

Now that I know the truth about who u really are I dont want u in my life anymore"

U ruined everything and there's nothing more I can do for u,

I can't live my life the way I wanted to because of u,

You say you were only protecting me from all the lies but why would you lie and try to protect at the same time it doesn't work that way,

I'm nothing like you and I never will,

So back away and never come back

© Alexa812