I was supposed to wake up happy...
I was not supposed to be tired by then.
I thought I was going to enjoy my day
But... its back to square one again.

The things that happen around me...
I don't know if they make me sick or excited
I can't tell if I crave the attention??
Or if I just want to be invited?

I struggle with the feeling of loss
Yet I feel like I've never had anything to lose??
I struggle with positive thoughts
I just don't have many I can use

I...