today I spent some time alone
no t.v., no drugs, no phone
and as my anger began to subside
my head was filled with thoughts I hide
I lie to me more than anyone else
to numb the pain my heart as felt
being alone is like being dead
left with the tortures inside my head my whole life I've had to constantly distract
to keep heart aches from drifting back
how are myself until I believe
that all those Nightmares on following me
but in my reflection I still see him there
with broken eyes but I don't care ml that's not me I'm someone else
I'm flying through the hurt he felt
high above on lies and love
smiling high on lies and drugs