Scratch the wall of the dark hole.
No idea if there is a light spot up there or not. Yes, there are people who have it worse, but I don't do letagic.
Have never really complained or burdened anyone strongly. Didn't want to say anything, keep everything quiet, because I don't have the strength or the words. I have to say something now, because otherwise everything will collapse on me again. I'm sorry, but I don't know what else I can do.