what if
I should not go
maybe just stay
it's not easy living
when nobody thinks you can make it
why keep going
when I can just end it
why have I been given this life
when I am not strong enough for it
I don't deserve it
and I am not ready for it
but no one is born ready right?
you just gotta fight
but I am done doing that

from ages back
till now
I was all always the one, no one thought could...