what if
I should not go
maybe just stay
it's not easy living
when nobody thinks you can make it
why keep going
when I can just end it
why have I been given this life
when I am not strong enough for it
I don't deserve it
and I am not ready for it
but no one is born ready right?
you just gotta fight
but I am done doing that

from ages back
till now
I was all always the one, no one thought could make it
and I kept fighting , to prove myself
but no one cares
I always feel like I am not good enough
I try not listen to them
but always get pulled back
I am weak
and I know it
I try to build myself up after breaking
but what's the point

lately
I don't feel any point
in anything
why do I feel like I am doing it
just for having to do it
that makes me less intrested
but I don't know
what, would be that on thing
I'd find a point in

I know I'm trying
just not giving my all
maybe cause I don't want to
and I am not sure why
I feel so useless
if people saw me
the way I saw myself
they'd hate me more