I wish i could read a persons mind
Maybe there's something interesting I'll find
Friends that are intoxicated and awfully fake
I have nothing to lose, give or take

I'm alone in this world, and that is reality
It's time to snap out of my wierd fantacy
"Think about your future" is all they say
Stressing about everything is what i do everyday

My future, school and especially my grades
The older i get i feel how my smile fades
I feel like crying all the time
Pretending always that I am fine

Trying to sleep is now a mission
Durning the day i lose control of my fission
Blurry faces as far as i can see
I feel like I'm not even meant to be

My house feels like prison, dark and alone
Maybe I'm living in the unknown
I'm living in a loop, everyday is the same,
Why does my life feel like a game

Except this game is not as fun
When you fail you are back to stage one
There isn't an stop or a finish line
The Goal of the game is to pertend you're fine

Even people doesn't seem real
And my scars will they even heal?
Everyone sees through me like I'm not there
If i get hurt will anybody care?

Being alone is normal for me
Being my only friend is fun and for free.
Yea i feel alone and sometimes sad
But being my only friend is not that bad.

© L.