this weekend marks a year of survival.
I'm still here stuck in his triangle, the fog has lifted, I never would have existed. he was beating me down and I had no clue. it took a man like you. to tell me the truth noone else could, and show me just what noone else would.
You think I'll never change it, but you just don't see it.
no matter where life brings me, it's you I owe it too. if it wasn't for you, I dont know where I'd be, I certainly wouldn't be me. I'm a little crazy with whole lota soul. In the end it was too much for you, too deep and loving. I forget you were broken, that she tore you open. a few months before we met, you had your heart set. then one day it came to an end and you swore never again. so when we met and your walls crumbled, you started to fumble. you want me to be the blue who didn't care, but she doesn't dare. you saved me from one of my biggest mistakes. for fucks sakes. I can't pretend to be something I'm not, it's how I got in this spot. I would move mountains if you told me you needed me to, just to see you smile a minute or two. when you told me you didn't want to speak anymore, it crushed me. I could hear you tell me, im not worth it. just want to be loved but not return it. you didn't need much to change your mind, even then you were kind. it breaks my heart to know I had a friend, who chose for it to end. rather then work on themselves, they will sit on the shelf. Afraid to let your heart love again. one day she will be there, you will lay your soul bare. I hope she isn't broken like you were. because you deserve her. nice guys are far and few, there is one in you. I just hope to see what you can be.
Krypt and Blue will always be a favorite memory. 💙
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