So I guess you going to improve
Yourself....
Leave me here all alone
With no one to talk to
I guess with no hesitation no incineration.... how I feel at the moment...... I am in so much pain......
I do not know the name of a pain killer decrease this pain....
So I have no other choice just to stay here and drink my sorrows away.....
I am starting to think this is starting to become my past time.....
I can hear the bottle calling me from a drunken state.....
It's said take another sip you know you need it won't hurt anybody.....
I reach for the bottle pour the the liquid in my cup.
I saw a reflection what I am becoming
In the liquid...... of darkness .......
Because I Feel Like These walls closing in on me and crushing Me slowly.....
I tried to run to the exit to get to safety
But it was a dead end
I had no other choice just sit there and wait for the end........
But the end never came.....
My reality is starting to bend.....
The choices I have made in this life starting to haunt me in my dreams ....
Below these selfish actions . ....
I have committed.....
I did not commit treason .....
I committed several crimes
To the people around me.....
In my lifetime
Drowning in self pity
Wondering if it will ever end......
In this tunnel of misery.....
Sadness is all I see.....
All problems and issues inside my head
The blood I bleed is flowing through me like a fish in the sea
So I think I'm going to take another drink....
Because that's what the doctor ordered.....
Because the doctor always knows what's best.....
He said Being sober is not an option....
So I continue to drink.... in till I feel numb......
So I cut my self to see if I still feel anymore
And the blood drips like candle wax on the bathroom tiles .....
So I dwell on my past and can't look towards the brighter future of tomorrow
Because the sun does not shine here
Because the ground I walk on is broken and cracked and irreplaceable
I had a doctors appointment I told him I was quite not feeling right and I felt so wrong so he said my recommendation is go see giggles the clown in the circus he was in town he will cheer you right up but what he don't know is I am the clown is me and quite depressed and had a frown
Because I ran out of jokes to tell
All I can tell now is sad jokes because I'm a broken man ......
All dressed in all black....
Which is not even fun....
So till this day I prepare the noose to end it all and call it a day to forget everything....
So goodbye cruel world I will not miss you ....