I walk through a gas station with a loaded 22, only 2 in the clip I grip it tight
I walk up to the cashier with a Sprite I pull out my peace,
aim right between his eyes,
end his life fuck the police
this night is mine I'm free right now
I leave that gas station runnin to the back jumpin over fences and benches runnin through yards
jump over a car
I take my hat off
thats all, no mask on
I kept my head low
no one saw it in the video
so I'm good and I kept up my hood
I grabbed 300 dolluhs I can get me some woods and smoke up
I see a cute bitch walkin' with a big butt
shawty look so good I wanna make her bust
I hide my gun switch out my shoes real quick i left them behind this dumpster, by this bar I throw the shoes in the dumpster
life of a hustler
I run into a buster who starts something thinkin he hard or bold
that motherfucker just got smoked,
the cig that was in his hand I pick it up and take a hit
I'm cuttin through alleys
of this fuckin' city I love its pitty
I'm a thug for the rest of my life
no pride, only wish for death but I'm alive
I do what I do cuz it's all I know
I was raised and brain washed
for my block
I know its wrong but these streets where I belong
I been a killer coldblooded drug dealer animal since sometime past 8
it's been too late
I have no redemption
not to mention the horrible wrongness shameful shit I've done
I'm a monster this is my life behind the gun
I was 8 when I was abducted and took into sex trafficking
I had a hot second to flee
and did so and got very lucky
and that's when I was found and brought into these streets
I'm white and my family was suburban but I was turned into a mean beast
and I dont want no apologies
from anybody, it's 2020
havent seen my family since 08'
I get back to my place
I call up my bitch and ask
her to come over to stay
damn it she can't,
now I have no love for this girl I could never let another one in
cuz my love was shot and killed by my old friend
Chicago turned me into a desperado
I have my boys and hoes
but no matter what I'm alone
my family lives over somewhere in
Texas unless they moved
it's times like this when I wonder who I am,
do I give a damn
or do I not
I'm right but wrong
I look at my nine I'm lost
who have I become
my family has to miss me huh
but I feel numb, I do
but I'm not that boy they lost so imma shoot
the only thing that hurts
is losin my love
but how many motherfuckers have I put up?
and I've done terrible things granted I didnt start developing morals til I met my girl
the only thing I loved in this world
I never would have raped those women when I was thirteen I was deceived
by those so called OG's
but I still did it
that's what I see when I catch my eyes slippin',
shut
that's why I like to go to sleep fucked up
in a blur
I've only caused hurt
so I received it
I start pourin up my drank so I can try to get to sleepin'
my nights seem to be always repeatin