Near vitiate experience in broad daylight
Penned down to convey
From early age
Always felt life was not fair
Molested by different people
Plunder like a loud violent home
Invasion with gun shot.

Stranger danger have never been taught
Grapping the feeling of guilt, I cannot truly understand
He used physical power to overpower me
He grabbed a handful of my hair
Locked the front door behind me
I fought, yelled and cried
It doesn’t matter how I cry loud
No one come to help.

Abuse my foundation, my dignity lost
Sad and sorry, struggling with the feelings
Leave a lot of self doubt and loathing
Felt weak to utter a word, never talk about it
Can’t tell this to mom, tsunami inside me is screaming
No one will understand how I felt.

Fallen in this vicious cycle
There’s no way out of it
Tears like elegant pearl rolling down my cheek
My body felt empty
A familiar pain in my loin
A grasp of air, the numbness.

I felt it every night
Like it was my entire fault
Too trusting, too naive
The past is written on my body
Sometime fills like it may kill
How do I forgive or forget.

Fragile and broken, the past is with me
I’ve finally come to grips with my past
Having prettiest eye that have seen a lot
Having kind heart that felt lot of pains
What some are imagine, is my ghastly reality
Did I deserve this?
Is this truly a fate?
My mind feels with confusion.

I cannot change the past
Looking forward to future
Going for anything new
That might improve the past
I have a sweetest smile glowing through my face
But deep down a secret held within.
@Olush4324