im tangled, trapped and wrapped in my mind
my emotions are choking me to death
they're suffocating
I can barely breathe how I wish I were able to balance them
they've taken the better part n I don't know what to do
maybe cry , but I ain't a weakling
I never want to change my perception on this
I can't watch myself crumble the solid walls I have built across in decades
I believe that I'm strong and all these shall pass
but what if they don't?
will they be my end and I'll drown on my own?
I think of opening up but I trust no one
humans camouflage and the difference between real and fake is a very thin line ready to be blown by the wind anytime soon
I'm hurting but I believe I'm my own doctor and my medicine is from within
this makes everything hard, harder than I thought
I once believed in the therapeutic nature of literature and music
but they all awaken my dark side and desires
at the end I'm sinking
I may be lost, I need power to control me

© dolph.thee.poet
#falling
#LoneWolf
#lonely