You may see me sitting calmly from afar,
like a cat from behind, quiet and easy.

But if you look closely, you will find my body slightly shivering and a lunatically quick movement of eyes,
darting from one corner of to another as if I have seen or heard something horribly wrong and forbidden, making me mad.

You will find it so unsettling, so disturbing, You will see me mumbling something and becoming suddenly all quiet, as if I have been sucked into an abyss of unknown thoughts.

You will find my afraid eyes silently screaming as if trying to absolutely deny something, something so fearful and sinister, something I absolutely want to stop from happening at all.

My mind keeps the deepest darkest thoughts, not be revealed to anyone, hidden under the deepest of seas, coming to the shore from time to time.

And that is when you find me, acting so strange that you will think I now lost it.

And you might be absolutely right! For I, after being tortured endlessly by all these disturbance, am not to take it anymore.

So, You may then find me, sitting quietly and calmly from afar, Like a sea before storm, shaking my head and whispering a word or two..

And You might hear a faint, but an unceasingly haunting cry of the soul, which I leave for you to imagine, but remember in your thoughts, that it's beyond mine and your understanding.



© Ophelia