I want the pain to stop,
so I drag my nails through my skin,
peircing until I feel the burn,
and feel the dampness of blood underneath.
I feel relief.

I want the pain to stop,
so I tell people, I'm fine, I'm okay.
Until I'm alone and I cry every last tear.
My eyes begin to nip and my pillow is wet.
I'm not alright yet.

I want the pain to stop,
so I force a smile on my face
Maybe if I play pretend it will become real.
I fake it until...