Naked. .

. .. satisfied. ..

Knowing its all ..wrong..

. ..Im always so close to the end. ..

I know you're not ok ..

. .. I know it doesn't work. ..

Its 1230 in the morning..

. .. Im supposed to go to work . ..

.. .. All you want is love .. ..

Sex is all that works..

. .. you beg for my attention. ..

You fight me until you cum ..

. .. passed out beside me . ..

While I sit here with my gun...

. .. love is all around me . ..

Everything feels just fine ...

... I sit here quietly ...

I sit here ..ignoring what I think.. ... I try to hide how it feels ...

... I try to block it all out ...

... Keeping it together ...

... Trying not to breathe ...

Youre sleeping so comfortably.. ... Youre finally at peace ...

... I know that I am distant ... I know that I am mean ...

... I treat you when I want to ... And then I always leave ...

.... I try to keep you far enough away ....

I push you as far as you will go ..

... I stay silent ...

. I refuse to respond .

... I know what I have coming ...

... I know it all feels better ...

... I feel like you feel safe ...

Neglected by your kindness ...

... This comfort brings us pain ...

I cant help but taste this barrel ... ... I finally feel alone ...

.. I wish that things were simple .. ..

.. I wonder what youre thinking ..

.. covered up in dreams ..

.. jealous of the absence .. .. knowing I don't sleep .. ..

.. 17 desires .. pressing down this spring ..

... The chamber preaching through a tube ...

... Happiness wants to kill me ...

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