i promise, this is the last time I'll ever write about him.
Occasionally through the grapevine of a one-stop light town
His name wisps in the wind
I can hear it faintly drifting like the snow falling on my front steps tonight
Softly
Peacefully
Humming in my ear
His name no longer leaves that burning ache
Deep inside my chest
When it reverborates
And for that, a smile stretches against my pales cheeks
Seven letters; two syllables
A name that now feels foreign to me
For a moment I stop to listen
It's no business of mine
What these snowflakes whisper to me
But I'm grateful to at least hear he is happy
Content in the direction his life is heading
Forward
Never back
As for me
For awhile, I questioned the validity of my self-worth
Wondering what was so goddamn wrong with me
That he'd wish to erase me from existence
Like I'd never existed
But lately I've noticed that I don't freeze
When his path crosses with mine
When beautifully green
But perpetually menacing eyes
Find me on a crowded street
And he turns from me
We don't speak
I am a stranger
And finally free
I don't dream of those eyes
Burning holes in my soul
Anymore
And I haven't for so long I almost forget
The feel of cold metal and hot sweat
Almost
But still I hope
Sometimes
When my name drifts through the grapevine
And the snowflakes tickle his ear
That my name doesn't bring that boiling anger to the surface
The kind he only reserved for me
That he is capable of feeling
Contentment
For my happiness, too
Forward
Never back
© krystlereisler
His name wisps in the wind
I can hear it faintly drifting like the snow falling on my front steps tonight
Softly
Peacefully
Humming in my ear
His name no longer leaves that burning ache
Deep inside my chest
When it reverborates
And for that, a smile stretches against my pales cheeks
Seven letters; two syllables
A name that now feels foreign to me
For a moment I stop to listen
It's no business of mine
What these snowflakes whisper to me
But I'm grateful to at least hear he is happy
Content in the direction his life is heading
Forward
Never back
As for me
For awhile, I questioned the validity of my self-worth
Wondering what was so goddamn wrong with me
That he'd wish to erase me from existence
Like I'd never existed
But lately I've noticed that I don't freeze
When his path crosses with mine
When beautifully green
But perpetually menacing eyes
Find me on a crowded street
And he turns from me
We don't speak
I am a stranger
And finally free
I don't dream of those eyes
Burning holes in my soul
Anymore
And I haven't for so long I almost forget
The feel of cold metal and hot sweat
Almost
But still I hope
Sometimes
When my name drifts through the grapevine
And the snowflakes tickle his ear
That my name doesn't bring that boiling anger to the surface
The kind he only reserved for me
That he is capable of feeling
Contentment
For my happiness, too
Forward
Never back
© krystlereisler