You did alot throughout history
I blurred most of it out
Ejected it from my memory
But every now and then
I can still see it vividly
Everytime you’d drink
I get alil fidgety

Never knew when you would flip
You’d be in my face
Pointing that finger
Hollering and shit
Yellin so much
You’d get spit on my lip
Like calm the fuck down
Despite whatever I did
Nigga talked to me like a man
Maybe you forgot I was a kid
I could see it in your eyes
You forgot I was a jit
Never really felt like a son
Felt more like your bitch
Hated living with you
Everyday I’d be so tense
Remember shit you’d tell me
How you’d cut me off and shit
How you’ll just stop helping
“Ask my other kids”
Nigga what on earth did i do
To get told that type of shit
Start think the love is fake
Like you playing pretend
Your love seemed like hate
Now I struggle to see love deep within
Theres hella shit you did
Some good some bad
Some shit I still cant comprehend
I wish I could bring them up
But you know how I freeze n shit
Still got that “dumb look” on my face
My mind goes blink when its time to think
You made me scared to make a mistake
Could never be me
Always had to stay in my place
Never felt love from you
Like a drug your love felt laced
Maybe thats why with females
I can’t take love to the face
I remember when you’d ask if i was gay
Like calm down nigga i was only eight
“I’m not raising no faggot”
You so homophobic I thought you were gay
I was just different from you
But had to hide all of me away
To please what you wanted in a son
By the way I’m still not gay
You were probably saying “I knew it”
Thats what I’d expect you to say

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By: SilenceTheKidd
© SilenceTheKidd