Bit of a sweet tooth,
love for chocolates turned into obsessions,
some sort of addiction,
to keep me happy,
to help me forget,
dissolving myself in these treats somehow make me a better person,
more happier,
calmer,
but without it I am lost,
don't know what to say,
sweaty palms and stammering words,
but in my head I am funnier I swear,
I overthink too much,
I know it's all in my head,
love, friendships, relations,
success, confidence,
I can't have it all,
most days it's nothing,
but I get over it,
with another piece of cake in my hand,
don't remember the last time I slept before sunrise,
I used to be smart,
but now I am failing,
where is my talent?
I was told everyone has one and I just haven't found it yet,
but hasn't it been too long?
maybe some people are just not destined for good things,
maybe some people are just born losers,
but do you know the good part?
I still have some leftover brownie and icecream,
the only good thing in my life
some more tv, and more music,
I might actually survive the night

© ~notyourfavperson