Feelings are something you can not force, you may try, but what I feel can not be force! You feel the need to test my feelings, but all you do is hurt my feelings! If you want me to feel when I am not feeling it then don't pout, because feelings should and need to happen naturally! When I feel, you'll know, when I feel it will be genuine and beautiful, sad maybe, happy maybe, but feelings non the less! Just because I can not feel when you want me to doesn't mean I don't have feelings! My feelings are there you just can't see them the same way as you see the others! No, it isn't my Autism that makes these feelings unknown or society, it is me! I choose not to have these feelings and I choose when to have feelings! So please don't make fuss about it anymore, because I do have feelings and I express them when and where I want too and when and where I don't! Does that make me any less human or does that make me human? But if you do really want to feel, if you want me express my feelings then I will express. Yet, I ask of you not to twist, and turn my feelings of expression into danger, into harm! You use my lack of and turn it into fear! That fear hurts me, it scares me, it endangers others! Now, I have that feeling of expression which you see as monstrous, yet you ask for me to express my feelings, but to you they not feelings! To you they are just chaos of the soulless! To have feelings means to have a soul and to have soul means to have and have not with feelings! Autism, feels and Autism doesn't, but to feel or not to feel that is not the question for you to worry and fear about, that something for me to think about!