Using drugs for a brief reprieve. We watch our loved ones as they grieve. Sadness in the eyes and love in your heart. They want to help but don't know where to start. They can't understand the disease addiction. Why we continue to cause them pain and affliction. We went to stop but have no control. drugs consume everything even our soul. We try so hard but it does no good. We would stop today if only we could.  We watchas our family stands helplessly by. Showing us they love us with each tear they cry. Causing others pain was never the intention. The things I did I won't even mention. I fonaly had to surrender, and turn over my will. Ther was thisemtyness inside me only God could fill. Only when I admitted I was powerless did I have a voice. Each day I get on my knees and I pray I asked God to keep me clean just for the day. I know this isn't going to happen over night. But Ive moved out of the darkness and into the the light. I can't do this all on my own if you look at my past that easily shown. mayne this time wont be like the last. Ive learned to slow down and not move to fast.