So many days and so many nights I do nothing but think about you, wondering where you are and what you are doing at that very moment, and my heart aches with pain, and instant tears fill my eyes, I feel so many different emotions, my heart is broken 💔 and words no matter how many I write will ever ever really say how very sorry I am for not being there like I had always promised you. I try so much to understand why nobody wants me to see you or spend time with you, and all I can think is how very confused, angry and hurt you must feel too. The time we have lost we will never get back and I hate that cause I've missed so much, but I hope and pray that you remember all the times when it was me and you, and all the things I told you, all the while building a bond only for me and you, one that would prepare us if we were ever apart, how did I ever know how much these words became true. I will always be here even when we are apart, close your eyes and picture us and know that Nana is closing her eyes thinking the very same thing as you, and don't be sad try and stay strong, and know that things aren't what you have been told by others and Nana has wanted nothing else but to get to spend time with you, I hope you remember the little I taught you and always know there is nobody...