Everyday I wake up thinking this day I'll not cry-
I reassure myself my life's become alright,
I try to think yesterday was just a bad dream;
I convince myself that they do care about me.
But when I lie down on my bed at night,
Fighting back those tears with all my might,
"Will my life always be like this?"I ask myself,
And the only answer I get is silence.

All day long I hide back those tears-
"These will make them sad ", is my only fear,
I don't let them know that I'm slowly drifting into depression.
"You shoul be a little more extrovert ", is the only advice given by them.
If only they knew that everyday of my life,
Is just a fight to keep myself alive.
Will I never be normal ?"I ask myself,
And the only answer I get is silence.

They tell me I'm sentimental;
They tell me I'm bad tempered;
I realize they are fed up of me,
I'm just a burden to them,it seems.
"Think of them who have done so much for you",they say,
Because of them,whom I love,I try to change my ways.
"When will stop being a burden for them?"I ask myself,
But,alas,the only answer I get is silence.

-Ramita

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