I am tired of pretending.
My head and heart can't take it.
All I think about is how I am failing.
How my life is going nowhere soon.
Why can't I ignore all the negativity?
What lesson am I not learning?
Can't I just be okay again?
Can't I just be myself again?

I am not okay.
I haven't been okay for a very long time.
It eats at me every day.
The thought of...