The pain and tears I shed within me today is due to regrets. I never know so called 'righteous people' in my life can be a threat. Some used me, duped and rejected me. Yet I can say only one percent out of the hundred helped me.

Jesus said it, "many are called but few are chosen." What about the rest? I guess they're frozen. Maybe by Queen Elsa, lol. Turn up the volume, vol. That's just by the way. Life is a game so you ought to play. I lost my game because I was scattered and shattered. Thus, confidence and I departed and I lay on my bed devastated. The whole world mocks at me and I guess that how I was created to be.

To be a funny clown or figure and be a laughing stalk for people, how then can I be free from this. This nerdy boy in glasses who is bookish and lacks social skills, how will his life be in bliss. Never experienced the joy of having a good friend, what kind of life is this?

From this I try to be alone and antisocial yet people complain about why I act that way. Should I act your way for you to hurt me in another way. For you to tell me I'm not a man but a pussy.

Sigh! Religious people are the worst but when it comes to church they're...