Sitting on a chair by
engulfing my own hands,
lots of thought pondering
making my
brain die,
In a state of despondency,
don't know what to do?
don't know where to go?
memories start to haunt
by taking me in flashback,
Where I was a happy child
where my smile was the palace
of beautiful dreams,
where sunrise and sunsets
Brought solace to my enchanting eyes,
where depth of wind
brought essence to my lonely skin,
Heart numbs, causing me the pain
Thus, I come back to reality
There is no path of light
to be found,
Tears start to flow down
making me drown ,
under the palace of beautiful silence
I keep talking to Myself
trying to calm me down
for minutes, for seconds
so I could think, think to escape
because I'm trapped
in complete darkness,
Thus, making my soul anxious
my body starts shivering
leaving me a scar
I breathe but
feels like I'm not breathing
so, I breathe again
My neck starts to dry
eventually realise there is no water around
and I start to cry more,
I kneel down,
I start to pray desperately
whispering loudly , " please help me,"
but no one listens,
days pass but there is no hope still around
I start to feel weak now
my body gave up
and so are my desires
which I dreamt since the day I was born
it will only be in my dreams,
as I can't fulfill them in reality.


© Peter_writes