Slaved from a golden deluxe’s strong large bow enslaving my spiritual shines
Graved for a poisonous long arrow engraving my lyrical rhymes

Crush + Like 𝚡 Lust =‘s Love at first raw sight
Lust + Love 𝚡 Trust =‘s Love that last for life
Shine ignites eyes lit up blinded bright iris shut
Slow motion timeless stuck so frozen mindless plus
dazed confused minus struct Deja vu silence hush

(Wow) Falling into deep
Now crawling-it’s too deep

Crush-Like-Lust-Love-Broken heart-Sadness-Depression-Numbed jealousy-Hatred-Anger-Madness-Insecurity-Anxiety Scared-Afraid-Delirious-Fears-Loneliness-Scarred-Tears Hopeless-Coward-Brainwashed-Rock bottom-Problems-Fake smiles-Stuck in a rut-Right here
In Hell-Death shell
Stuck In A Nightmare
Inhale-Exhale
WAKE UP-wake up
can’t wake up-CAN’T WAKE UP

Love+love+love
Love set me free
Love+love+love
Love let me be
Love+love+love
Give love to faith so I can go live free
Love+love+love
Give love to hate so I can forgive thee,..,


Love-love-love
Love is what I need
Love-love-love
Love is what I believe
Love-love-love
Love saved me-from slavery
Love-love-love
Love gave me-strong bravery
Love-love-love
Love gave me the strength to use common sense n blame nobody
Love-love-love
Love gave me pleasure n pain-love made me a God-body


Love+love-love
Love for you and me
Love+love-love
Love for unity
Love+love-love
Love for humanity
Love+love-love
Give love to bigotry
Love+love-love
Give love to forgive thee


Empty tears but still I cry
Deathly fears but still I try

Blessed with a poisonous curse
Yes this loneliness hurts
And no it only gets worse
Hating thy self insanity—falling through the back route to old habits(i’ve had it)
Talking to myself but that ain’t me-that it’s so wack & told too tragically (this sadness) it’s sad
Taking myself anxiety—going to black out & fold automatically (this status) it’s bad
Also it’s all so damn graphic—oh no can’t grab it to set free this madness
My sane left me so I can’t even imagine
Please (no) don’t test me with malice
My pain grows I can’t even manage
This bipolar depression (what a ride)
And It’s low like life’s over suppression (what lies inside)
Then this blows like high roller sensation(that I hide)
Wow-what a low (so lonely) Whoa-what a high (so unlike me)
But I don’t know why as lately i’m only stuck high hard on the low (I don’t know)
And it’s cries starting to show(grows & grows)
Sounding so needy (really)
Drowning slow freely (free me)
As the yawning(s) doesn’t stop (tiring)
Insomnia back with full bloody vengeance
As the warning’s doesn’t stop (sirens)
Hysteria that is full of free grievance
Needless to say (breath of grief)
I need rest today (rest in peace)
As to say it gets pretty ugly with this PTSD(how ugly)
No pretty—just so ugly & so petty (how lovely)
So pitiful but it’s so deadly (radiations)
Gots to be ready in every (situations)
A must cause as thoroughly tomorrow (today-yesterday)
Won’t just pause the newly sorrow (to say a better way)
And I can no longer be in this lie—I am moody hollow
So where do I go a loner even if I am to loosely follow
Hoping in thee end that my poems can fully fill up & make me safe
Hope in thee end that my poems can fully seal up and take a needy break
Thee only therapy eYe know
Really lonely shamefully like I need sympathy as I go
All nutty as I might be all gone and all cuckoo crazy again
Call it unlucky like I really need someone at all to save me—amen(stay clueless)
And then—I can’t pretend (can’t do it)
No I can’t pretend no more
Misleading like believing I really know the cure (for sure)
It’s feeling like i’m leaving my reality to grow so unsure (more unsure)
It feels like i’ve been duped fast gone missing abducted
Then it feels like i’ve been put back on a different planet
The wrong (why it’s a scary thing this) unknown earth (so daunted)
It’s wrong (why is everything split) shown in reverse (unwanted)180 flipped
Stunned haunted
Numbed uncounted
I’m forgoing,..,
I’m frozen,..,

Oh what to do when all my wants & needs is just this thirst to be freed
Oh what to do when all I need & want is just this first me-then you-agreed
Continue
But only Brian is allowed for this role and can without a doubt
But mostly Brian is bounded or his soul’s dammed (with doubt) can’t get out
There’s BDub—Almost & Purpboi (oh boy)
Just let me-just get free-let me-get free the fuck out
I must get the fuck out,..,

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