I can still hear voices in my dreams
and I can't tell if it's the real you.
So far away yet for some reason I can feel you still.
I tried closing my eyes but it doesn't help
I still see you.
It's like the sweet smell of your fragrance
never knows an end.
It's hard to pretend that it's not there
cause it is enveloped in the air around me as if it's a mist.

I still remember the sweetness of our first kiss
when time slowed down and I couldn't hear a single sound.
I hadn't an idea of what was happening around
but was glad that a piece of happiness had finally found me.
I swear some nights my dreams are scenes too vivid
I feel like I'm loosing myself in the past
and if I don't re-live those moments
I'm afraid that the few memories I have of you won't last
and you'll turn to nothing more than a ghost.

But of all the time we spent together,
the beginning is what I remember the most.
Because the first time I made you smile,
it felt like the warmth of the sun
had made it's way inside after a while.
The tender warmth of your lips
made it hard to resist it.
Even though past relationships had left you in bits and pieces
I promised that I'd love you in all your imperfections.
The moment your eyes said thanks
I saw myself I their reflection
and I knew then that you'd let me in where few had ever been.
What was once shrouded in darkness was for once clear
this was the side of your heart
where you'd hidden all you ever feared.
All that you've ever lost and the regrets you'd buried.
and all the memories you forgot.
I know it's not easy when every step reminds you of a past mistake.
When every smile you were masks the pain
that you wish to replace with something other than a burden.

The thing about love is that it can be so uncertain
it's like a leap of faith, you never know where you'll land
so brace yourself, cause you won't always make it.
Sometimes you gotta fall face first
to get a taste of failure
but eventually you'll learn not to fear it.
There are a few things in this world more resilient than the human spirit
and it's quite a sight to look forward to a future brimming with life
a future bathed in colors so bright
making your heart soar as if heaven was at your feet.

I'll be waiting for you there
and no matter where we first heard the songs of those hummingbirds
their sweet songs always seem to take me back
to the beginning where we both started.


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