What is the cause,my friend?
why are you the only recourse,
I found in the midst of these torturous
feelings?
messaging you at odd times,
when it's very unbecoming of me
& you ,equally.

what's it in you,
that took me out of my not-sharing habit of mine,
& therby helping me lighten this unknown burden of mine
and yours, equally.

What is it,
that has become our similar enemy,
and cause of our living at the same time?

My friend,but,
the degree of pain isn't similar,
you are one step further,
and relieved from this pain of being on the fence,
I'm yet to be rebuffed
and it'll be a hell to face, i know

so give me the courage,
and tell me how...