poem by valeria of hysteria Why can't we just chill and smoke and watch southpark? Smoke n Stroke People who say they'll stay never mean it...why bother saying it when you can renigg by just saying "I changed my mind" lol clever lil loophole Please tell me you'll come back..tell me something...well your silence says so much. I wish I could fuck off trust me Ugh I'm sorry...I just wanted to see. I get it if you just wanna cut things off Just tell me you don't want anymore, it'll feel better When was the last time we hung out and both of us were sober? Yeah I don't remember either Goddamnit I just NEED you to fuck me so bad and hard...I could cry that's how bad I need Goddamnit come back, come back and pretend again..pretend to care pretend to like me. My fucking legs and feet something ain't right. I wanted to be with you in case something was really wrong cus I can't bear to tell my parents anything. Fuck the hospital idk would've felt safer if you around. I need youCouldn't even bother to call back or text lol you literally don't give a fuck about me/with some other cunt...wish you'd just be honest for onceAsking for help and telling you I need you literally does nothing...cus I am nothing. Idk why you pretended to care and you don't even pretend anymore. It hurts a lot..I keep thinking about when we stayed at the drake and how you were literally someone else. Even if it was fake it's the last time I remember feeling happy and feeling good without drugs. I had been clean for 2 months. You gave me the time of day..it unravelled so quick...that sudden switch frome happiness to heartbreak is sucha scary and intense change like mixing currents..I thought you understood and I made the huge mistake of thinking you could care..I wanna go back so bad..none of this matters you won't read it and the only reason I still hear from you occasionally is cus I can't just stop and go away. And you love doing this to me idk why I never hurt if anything I cared too much for something/someone who isn't realPlease don't let this be one of yours lol I don't have the mental energy to come up with decent insults...We could have fun at others expense and have a chill day idk but I'd feel safer with you I'm scared to get in the shower..like it might be too much for me and I gotta shower and wash my hair and I'm home alone. Lol stroke out mid shower and crack my head open..not how I wanna go but it'd be kinda hilarious I just wish I had one fucking person that wouldn't give up on me..I wanna give up on me lol stupid way to live...I really needed to you...getting yelled at and dogged down first thing in the morning..it's like you know I need help and go outta your way to not be there. Idk why you hate me now...don't I make you cum the best? That deserves something in return...at least a hug
Goddamn you Chris I needed you so bad..I needed your cock, I needed your cum you selfishly deprive me of..now I'm so sad but horny. I just wanted you to fuck me hard maybe a cuddle. I wish someone would just love me so I could forget about you.
© Christopher george