I will never replace him

I mean I am trying

But hard out here
Am I a fool to think I will find someone who is better?

Real conversations are impossible

Can we talk about something else other than the weather?

I want to take a walk

A journey through your mind

I want to learn all the ways you move

Songs that make you groove

But you are so damn aloof

My life is filled with false starts and abrupt endings

None of the happy

A bunch of pretending men who pretend to like me for me

But in reality

I am nothing but a pretty face card

Some eye candy

Someone they can discard when the next broad comes along

That is what he wanted

You know

An option

A pass to chase whatever ass he wanted

While I stood by wanting him

And only getting what's left of him

But in the piece of him he was willing to give me

I saw a broken man who's not at peace

I saw a glimpse of me in his soul's reflection

When I felt rejected

It hurt

He was rejecting me for loving him solely

I almost wish he hadn't told me

At least I wouldn't be so lonely

Seeking connection through endless swipes
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