There is a big hole in my brain,
filled with so many aches.
It spreads out its darkness and corrupts my soul
Yelling choice of insanity
Itches on my skin.
There is eerie everywhere and my urges so strong i feel like taking drugs.

But my will wont give up
i wont be broken
i would tie myself in chains if i have too.
But it seems i bargained for what i didn't expect
Am so filled with tears at seeing you hate me.
But if only hate that can make you love me
And only pain that can make you cherish me

But knowing and seeing you cry each time makes me dead inside.
The feeling of uselessness is so aching,
am brought to my knees by my very own decisions,
am held so tightly by them, i keep on struggling but i can't get myself free.
They raise my head and force my eyes open,
to watch pain break you slowly and pain punching you in the gut.
Now hate is on the way and am still miles away from being free.

You are bleeding and crying all because of me.
Now am being sealed in a cage by myself
i must watch you suffer cos i know it's for the better.
Am very terrified and feel like committing sucide,
Cos am dead inside.