I'm so used to being told 'I get it' whenever I break down my self-hatred
My self harm
My self-doubt
"I know how you feel"
How do you know how I feel if I don't know how I feel?

If you are reading this,
Please do not twist my words into an accusation.
Because I am not saying no one knows how it feels
I am not.
But if you are here for me,
Why do I still feel so lonely?
Do you get that?
Do you get it well enough to want to kill yourself?
To sometimes wish you were...