I'm so used to being told 'I get it' whenever I break down my self-hatred
My self harm
My self-doubt
"I know how you feel"
How do you know how I feel if I don't know how I feel?

If you are reading this,
Please do not twist my words into an accusation.
Because I am not saying no one knows how it feels
I am not.
But if you are here for me,
Why do I still feel so lonely?
Do you get that?
Do you get it well enough to want to kill yourself?
To sometimes wish you were dead?
Do you get it well enough to want to take away everyone's pain but inflict that same pain on yourself?
To ponder endlessly about the caloric quantity of what you just ate?
To be bent over in the bathroom emptying out the only meal you’ve had in 2 days?
Do you get it well enough to get me?
I am sorry if this poem hurts your feelings, but I know nothing than to hurt.
Do you get that?
WHY DOES EVERYONE BUT ME GET IT?
Do you get that once I learn the numbers,
I can't erase it?
Will you get it if you see my scars?
Will you get it if I'm nothing but a distant memory?
I am sorry if this poem has hurt your feelings, but do you still get it?


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