FOR AWHILE NOW I HAVE STRUGGLED INSIDE
TO FIND AWAY TO ESCAPE WHAT I HAVE BECOME,
LOST IN A WORLD OF NIGHTMARES I CANT LEAVE BEHIND
THOUGH I TELL MYSELF IT'LL BE ALRIGHT TO LET IT GO,

I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF SEEKING TO FIND MY DISEASE
EACH AND EVERY SINGLE DAMN DAY,
I MAKE SO MANY CALLS AND SEND TOO MANY TEXT
HOPING I'LL GET WHAT I NEED TO FEED THIS DEMON,

I LONG FOR THE MOMENT TO JUST BREATHE WITH EASE
AS I CLOSE MY EYES AND PRAY TO BREAK AWAY,
I FEEL IT AS SOON AS MY EYES OPEN TO VIEW
THE DAY THAT LAYS IN WAIT FOR ME,,,

I HAVE SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR YOU SEE
MY WIFE AND KIDS AND MY DREAMS TO BE,
YET I CAN'T FIND THE INNER STRENGTH TO WIN
AGAINST THIS DEMON INSIDE MY MIND,

WITHIN AN HOUR OR TWO OF TRYING TO STOP
THE NIGHTMARES BEGIN AND IT HURTS,
THE PAIN BEGINS FROM MY MUSCLES DRAWING
TAKES OVER EVERY MOMENT OF TIME,,,,

I LAY THERE TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF FORGET
ONLY TO GIVE UP WITHIN A MINUTE OF TRYING,
THIS IS A NIGHTMARE OF NIGHTMARES I LIVE
EACH DAY AND ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT,

I TELL MYSELF I WANT OUT OF IT'S GRASP
YET THAT FEELING FOREVER LAST FOR IT'S NEED,
I WALK AROUND LOST IN MY THOUGHTS
WISHING I COULD JUST MAKE IT STOP,

BUT EACH MOMENT THAT GOES BY
IT'S ALWAYS THERE ON MY MIND,
LEAVING ME FEELING COLD INSIDE
AS I WONDER HOW I AM GOING TO FIND,

MY NEXT MOMENT OF TIME
THAT IT'S NOT IN MY MIND.
ADDICTIONS OF MANY KINDS
TAKING AWAY SO MANY LIVES,,,,,,,,,,


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one of my poems I wrote about my journey with alcohol and drug addictions..
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