It happened again.

The shame is almost overwhelming.

A brief burst of pleasure,
tinged quickly with pain.

Even more quickly followed by
shame, guilt, and anger.

But strangely,
despite these dark emotions filling me to the brim
with a black bitterness

I still feel hollow.
Lessened.
Diminished.

As if a small crack has fractured anew in my soul.

I feel the energy taking leave of my body,
deepening the despair.

My emotions, previously running hot and fast,
quickly dull into...