I'm lonely, I'm sad

I cry when i see people chilling with their friends.
I cry when i see people having fun.
I cry when people think I'm weird again.
I cry when people making fun out of me again.
I cry when i realise again my in-game friends are fake
I cry when i get home from work when nobody is around
I'm even starting to cry while typing this



I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to feel bad anymore.
I don't want people to make fun out of me anymore.
I don't want to be weird anymore
I don't want to be lonely anymore
I don't want to hide my tears behind my smile anymore
...
Sometimes... I don't even want to live anymore



I want to be happy, even though i'm not sure if that will happen.
I want to sing with people
I want to dance with people
I want to have fun like a little kid again
I want to have friends i can talk with

I want to be alive again