If I had one wish,
then it would be to not have ever allowed what you did,
to happen to me.
if I were to wish wrong on you I’d be fooling myself because
It wouldnt help to get me through.
these long nights that drag out
until long past the cease of the mornings due
he says I can forgive, but somehow never forget
if the shoe was on the other foot you’d change up your outlook and your tune
I bet
Just beyond this tiny box around your mind Clarity is waiting.
If I had one, wish it would be for you too slip into some shoes
That look like mine
Standing in my shoes there’s nothing that you wouldn’t understand.
if I could wish just one wish
A miracle formulated only for you it would be
Realize the gift one might get to help you see the importance of the things I begged you for
like when I asked you to hold my hand,
I told you what I wanted and so much more.
I could envision what you were capable of-long before our eyes met.
I was blind walking with a stick.
You helped me to see a darker side that made me want to run forever and hide.
I trusted in you so I chose to confide
the truth crept up and showed me where it was that you belonged.
degradation became the daily norm and I just watched little by little as the love we had became ripped and torn.
My confidence disappeared.
The words get out became the words I constantly feared.
your punishment I welcomed by not knowing what I should do. Your wrath became my monster.
Not the kind that lives under the bed or lurking in a closet
It was public humiliation that traumatized me the best
Followed by the shame you flooded my world with that
I will not easily forget.