Dark Thoughts
Sometimes I think,
I have nobody to share my intrusive dark thoughts with.
I stay in the silence just to stop those noises in my head.
I have nightmares that says I'm a pure soul.
But according to people I'm a beast with ugly heart and scary soul.
I never wish anyone to be a part of my dark thoughts.
They won't survive in dark thoughts.
Sometimes you need to rely on yourself because you can handle it.
At least for a while you can control it.
You know,
Long time ago I thought I'm burying my all the dark intrusive thoughts.
But I realised lately that my dark side slowly burying me that deep. Where I can't keep up my head, my feelings and my living energy alive.
I thought I was destroying my beast inside.
But it took over me already.
I just smile something bad happens.
and fill my heart with lots of guilt and shame.
Sometimes I'm happy anyways.
for a while, maybe my devil allows me a little break, so he can play with my heart again and again.
You can't control your life,
not even love survive in it.
It's just envy.
© im_1d03
I have nobody to share my intrusive dark thoughts with.
I stay in the silence just to stop those noises in my head.
I have nightmares that says I'm a pure soul.
But according to people I'm a beast with ugly heart and scary soul.
I never wish anyone to be a part of my dark thoughts.
They won't survive in dark thoughts.
Sometimes you need to rely on yourself because you can handle it.
At least for a while you can control it.
You know,
Long time ago I thought I'm burying my all the dark intrusive thoughts.
But I realised lately that my dark side slowly burying me that deep. Where I can't keep up my head, my feelings and my living energy alive.
I thought I was destroying my beast inside.
But it took over me already.
I just smile something bad happens.
and fill my heart with lots of guilt and shame.
Sometimes I'm happy anyways.
for a while, maybe my devil allows me a little break, so he can play with my heart again and again.
You can't control your life,
not even love survive in it.
It's just envy.
© im_1d03
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