My feelings come in waves, no matter what I do my soul caves. I feel so much its ludicrous, like a teenager ridiculous. When our eyes meet, it makes me weep to see the love I need. I know you see it, I know you feel it. Your past has brought you to this place, but does not decide your case. I made mistakes that showed me the way to you. You showed me kindness when you didn't need too. You thought that's what made me fall for you. Maybe that is true, after years of feeling numb made to feel dumb, then you come along. I never thought this would ever happen. I didn't even see you coming. Every intention of staying in my place. then you made my heart race. The sound of your voice makes my thighs ache.... Your eyes seem to go right through me. like you can see the real me. for a moment you let me in. Like a whirle it begins. People start to run their mouths, jealous of what was found. Two hurt souls drawn together. Wanting to be loved forever. Your scared of what you feel with me. I'm too much for your soul to see. That's not news to me. It's something I have always known, a seed that was sewn. I'll likely never be loved the way I need, but you can grow to see what you can be. Being in different countries is a sin. What we could be would be a win. Everytime I try to let go, it's like you fight it. can you feel me trying to hide it? the connection that keeps me returning, soul burning. rejected so much, I just want it to hush. Then my phone rings, my soul sings. Without looking I can feel you. It's like your soul is calling to. I try to put it off, "he's not interested, enough" 2 minutes pass, and I just can't last. I look and see you messaged me. Your just getting home, want to see if you can phone. Of course I say yes, knowing this must be a test. A moment later and my heart pitter patters. Your on my screen smiling at me, melting my soul faster then I know. Been months since I've seen you, God I missed this view. I sigh, smiles coming from both my eyes. Big and blue just for you, I blush and try to hide it. I just can't seem to stop it. We spend an hour chatting, laughing. Our eyes matching. We say goodbye, and my soul shines. I lay in bed, its 2am. My heart feeling waves of love, our connection from above. You tell me I make you smile, gives me the energy to run a mile. I fall asleep, to the sounds my heart makes, when all I can feel is the waves, that you create.
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