It's not like I don't want to
I do
I try
Everytime i do so i know
But as days pass i seem to have alreay forgetten
Truly i want to
I want to touch it, open it, read it and meditate on it
But i find myself waking up
I fell asleep like always
I don't fancy nor like it
I do want to
Candidly i read it sometimes
But again as time flies
I seem to have forgotten
It tatters under my pillow due to the friction and actions as i sleep
I don't like that
It sometimes collects dust and i stare at it
I do Not intend to ponder on reading it
But i find myself contemplating and next thing I'm not anywhere close to it
I don't like it
I do
I Really , really do Want to
But I don't know what happens
I frankly want to with all my might
But it seems to not happen
I don't like that at all
One day
Just one day
I pray and wish i find myself
So consumed and engulfing the scriptures like never before
That I won't even notice the dusk and dawn ,come and go as i enjoy myself
In his word
I await that day
That will turn my tables
That will change my life a million fold
I await that day
Truly i want to learn more from it
I want know more and have my life a different view
A clearer and pure view
I know it's me
I know it is I that's supposed to initiate the process
I know and I'm working on it
The day will come
I shall take the small steps and next thing find myself at the throne
At the high table
The day will come
I shall be at another level of peace
The day will come


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